Friday, 30 January 2009

So confused...


I had small cramps in my lower stomach. Not like AF was coming but simliar. I put it down to needing a wee! So I went for a wee and wiped... Do not read on if you don't want to hear TMI!!

I wiped a huge glob of cervical mucus, it was like EWCM but far thicker and stickier and loads of it, almost the size of a ping pong ball. I spoke to some friends who said this was a very good sign on implantation. So I was on cloud nin last night! Still only BFN's but it could be too early for the pregnancy hormone to show.

This morning...
I went to the doctors to talk about my blood results. Something unconnected with TTC is that my blood viscosity is slightly raised. My blood is too thick lol! He wants to re test the blood to see if it was just an annomoly. But he also found that my progesterone levels were low. He siad this could be because we did the blood test at the wrong time but he wants to retest to see if the levels have changed.

Now my thinking is that when I went to have the blood tests I think I ovulated that day. Which means my progesterone levels would be low because they don't rise until 7 DPO...

So... is there still a chance I will get my BFP?? Now you see why I am confused!

Thursday, 29 January 2009


So I am seven days past ovulation... I think!
The good news is I am 95% sure I ovulated, the bad news is, even if I ovulated I only have a 25% chance of getting my BFP!

I am trying to stay positive and I have a strange calm feeling telling me I am pregnant. Trouble is if I am not pregnant I am gonna feel so much worse.

My blood tests came back with everything normal or okay so that is a relief, however the doctor does want to speak to me about the viscosity of my blood???? I have an appointment tomorrow.

Some good news! I got free tickets to see Britains got Talent being filmed in Cardiff! Whoop Whoop! I go with DH and my brother and his girlfriend on Monday yay!

Hopefully by then I will know if I am pregnant or not...

Tuesday, 20 January 2009

Feeling better, but guilty

So as it turns out Claire isn't pregnant, I misunderstood her facebook status. She was just optimistic as she ovulated this month and BD at the right time. I feel so guilty because, although I didn't tell her what I had presumed and how I had felt about that, I still felt that way.

Suzi has also officially told me that she is pregnant, before it was just office whispers. It is official now, she is due in August. I am honestly made up for her, but selfishly I hope it is my turn next!

Last night I got my first EWCM, I hadn't had it before asI have been on the depo and before that the implant for as long as I can remember! This means it is quite possible that I will ovulate soon. This makes me optimistic, if I were to get pregnant I would be due in October.

The trouble is I keep on getting my hopes up, like this, only for them to be dashed. I hope this time I get my wish. I already know exactly what pram/cot/etc I want!

I have an appointment on Thursday to have my bloods taken. I went to the doctors before Christmas as I hadn't had a period since stopping the depo (I only had one injection!) And so had been 6 months without anything. So he suggested that I have bloods taken to check my hormone levels.

Michelle posted pics of her 7 months bump on facebook, she has a lovely bump!

In other news, my mum got her kittens and they are adorable. 2 girls and a boy called Wispa, Gracie & Oscar. On Saturday I will go to hers and my brother will be there too, so that will be nice.

Friday, 16 January 2009

Everyone is pregnant but me!!

My best friend Shelly is
My cousin Nicky is
My close friend Suzi is
My friend Karen in
My collegue Sarah is
My fellow TTCer Claire is


I have been trying for 7 gruelling months, why oh why can't I get pregnant.

Been really tearful today, found out Claire was pregnant, she and I were supporting each other TTC, I am made up for her but had hoped it would be my turn first. She has only been trying for 4 months and she has PCOS.

Its all the stupid Depo injection's fault, I only had one and then I didn't have a period for 6 months. Now for the last 6 weeks I have had 3. One week on, one week off. I doubt I am ovulating.

Poo :(